Kaleidoscope Of Life

10:55 am and as I was walking towards LR1. . there was a group of students in front of the room. Obviously not my students since they will be a bit late today due to some changes in venue. And so I made my way to the Science Informatics bulletin board and ignoring the noise around me from those group of students. I kinda know whose students they were since as mentioned earlier, due to venue change. 

As I was reading the article on Open Office pasted on the bulletin board, 2 things happened simultaneously.
One, a boy came standing at the glass door shouted something to his friends(this very group of students) and two, the lecturer of the 9-10 class came out of the room and was already walking towards that glass door. At this moment, there were more noise all these ppl started walking towards the boy muttering something( or rather many things). I was also one of those who contributed to the noise at that time, but it was to call out to my collegue in order to get the room key from her.

So, once the key was in my hands I headed back, trying to manouvre my way through this group of students...hmmm...fine, so they were rushing and it was obvious by this moment that they had to go to another class venue. Then I heard it loud and clear, "Bile PDT masuk jer, kita kena kick!". My head turned to the voice but alas, I couldn't see the face of the girl. All I know was that she was wearing a red baju kurung and black headscarf.

Now, I was rather upset by that comment made by her. I was there, a lecturer, a PDT leacturer to be exact, and that venue was given to me, so I could't help but wonder if that was a deliberate comment made. I believed this girl should have more sense since she's a PST student and supposed to be the creme of the creme...and here she is coming up with such an inconsiderate and bias remark. What if the PDT students were there and heard this remark? Wouldn't it create a tension between these 2 programs? Wouldn't they feel hurt? Even when I heard that, I was really upset.

It disturbs and upsets me when students of this level of education, who are very good in their academic, who are examplary students in their previous schools, who carry a string of As with them have no proper manners. They hardly know the correct way to speak to their lecturers and their peers, they are rather disrespectful towards their lecturers(yes, doing other subjects' work in English class is included here) and like the incident earlier, they are very selfish. What have gone wrong?

However, I believe not every student is as such...there are many in this college whose attitude I applaud. Now these are the students who really deserve to be here.

Anyway, I do hope such an incident would not happen again...and being under one roof, we should give and take. Especially when we are in an educational institution where we learn to be an better person. So, lecturers and KMM students out there, (or those reading this) whenever you find your students or friends acting inappropriately, make sure you point it out to them and help them to become a better person.

The obvious, Black! If given a choice of the colour I'd choose to wear for the whole next year...

I love black...simply gorgeous! and gives you the classic look...



And I've thought about this as well before, filling up my wardrobe with all black clothes...hmmm...come to think of it, not a bad idea after all...



let's see if I'd go about doing it...=)

I wanted to write about some things that annoy me, since I encountered an incident at Family Store earlier. However, as I was typing these very words in my blog, my thoughts went to an email entitled "Words of a Wise Man" sent to me by one of my dear friends.

Let me just summarise its content...it's a story about a-95 old man who told a younger man that every day he wakes up deciding that he's going to be happy. He chooses to see the better side of the things that happens to him every day of his life. "It's all up to us to determine if we want to be happy. Happiness is in our hands." (well something like that;-))

So I decided just that. Instead of focusing on some unpleasant incident, I decided to look at the nice things happened to me whole day.

So these are the nice things that made my day...

1. I had a good breakfast with wana and iza. It's the only time of the day nowadays when all of us would be able to eat together. That made me happy.

2. During the hols, I had to mark exam scripts, and yeah it was really tedious and frustrating looking at the students performance. However, on the other hand, I had good laughs marking those papers marveling at the students' ability to create new words;-). And today we shared among ourselves on precisely just this. So laughing is good. I was happy.

3. Mid morning, I finally found the song I have wanted to download for about weeks now. I was thrilled! Listen to it whole morning. I was happy.

4. My mom called just to say she misses me. hearing her voice was so nice. I was happy.

5.I had coffee around 3. What could top that? I enjoyed it tremendously. I was happy.

6. Then I realised I hardly have any space to write on my table. The computer was totally at the wrong side. And so I decided to rearrange the things around. And iza was ever so helpful and k.niza as well. Rearranging and sweeping. It's so nice of them to help. I'm blessed to have nice and lovely people around. I was thankful and happy.

7. Looking at the new arrangement, I now have more space on my table. I liked it. I was happy.

8. I went to Family Store. I managed to buy all I wanted on the list I have. I was happy.

9. I am writing an entry now. I'm happy.

I have decided wisely today. I am happy.:-)

I hope they answered all calmly...

So...Michael Jackson has left the world, but I'm sure everywhere you go now, you hear his songs or his music video played at various outlets. He is still very much 'alive' in the world despite his demise.


Raya was in Kl this year...Bob(my brother) had his second child...so everyone was dying to see the new addtion to the family...So back to MJ, there I was at my sis house, all family there, and instead of hearing to Raya songs, most of the time I was hearing to my niece and nephew singing to MJ songs! hehehe....My nephew who is 10 and whom before this had never knew any of MJ songs(or know how big MJ was before) has gone ga-ga over the King of Pop songs right after MJ was pronounced dead.



He made my sis buy his MJ music video cds and I even witnessed him throwing tantrums when my sis was reluctant to get him his new idol's cd!. He even coerced my brother to teach him the Moonwalk whenever my brother came to his house, and did his research on YouTube on how to moonwalk! And his favourite music video...Thriller! Hmmm....who doesn't like Thriller anyway! ;-)



What amazed me most was the fact that in the few days we were in KL celebrating Eid, he managed to influence his twin cousin(well, they are always mistaken for twinS!) to listen and sing along to all his favourite MJ tracks! oh not to mention, my 2year plus nephew(bob's son) even know the MJ signature step...(you know the crotch grabbing dance step)! Well all this thanks to his cousin brother.

The MJ craze does not only stop among my family members but it's extended to other very young generation as well... Last month during one of the buka puasa with my sis and her family, while we were sitting feasting our eyes at the wonderful dishes before us, Black or White was heard...and a few of 13 year olds were humming to the tune.

I quote Ida "It's true what is said about the King of Pop...He was famous during his lifetime but even more after he left this world!"

The line of Shakespeare in Macbeth "...a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more..." definitely does not apply to the most influential icon in the music industry, Michael Jackson!

i've not been updating my blog for some time now...the reason..i didn't feel like writing...
it amazes me to see ppl updating their blogs daily...hats off! ;-)

well...ramadhan is about to end...so i was just sitting and reflecting on this whole holy month and listing out some things here...

1. somehow during this month, the weather is really nice...
2. i feel so much calmer...and i think many ppl as well
3. i feel tired often as well...a lot at times...but hey! have to hide it from students!;-)
4. less complaining and talking abt ppl...which is better!
5. succeeded to be more productive...lots of work was completed...so proud of myself!;-)
6. this year...only once went to ramadan bazaar! tired of it already...
7. less intake of coffee...surprisingly
8. hardly missed my sahur...another pat on the back;-)
9. also not much shopping done this year...wonder why...hmmm
10. managed to bake choc chip cookies! yummy!;-)
11. finally, the best was getting a niece on 15th Sept Siti Ulfah Begum...and Wana's newborn Sabrina Nafeesa on 6th Sept.

it's the best month of the year and one of the months i'm gonna miss most...

To all my family, friends and students...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!! EID MUBARAK!!!

and yet another lovely song from Jason Mraz...




Song For A Friend - Jason Mraz
FREE MP3 DOWNLOADS @ MP3-CODES.COM
Well you're magic he said
But don't let it all go to your head
Well I bet if you all had it all figured out
Then you'd never get out of bed
No doubt
All the thing's that I've read what he wrote me
Is now sounding like the man I was hoping
To be
Keep on keeping it real
Cause it keeps getting easier indeed
He's the reason that I'm laughing
Even if there's no one else
He said, you've got to love yourself

You say, you shouldn't mumble when you speak
But keep your tongue up in your cheek
And if you stumble on to
You better remember that it's humble that you seek
You got all the skill you need,
Individuality
You got something
Call it gumption
Call it anything you want
Because when you play the fool now
You're only fooling everyone else
You're learning to love yourself
Yes you are

There's no price to pay
When you give and what you take,
That's why it's easy to thank you
You...

Let's say take a break from the day
And get back to the old garage
Because life's too short anyway
But at least it's better then average
As long as you got me
And I got you
You know we'll got a lot to go around
I'll be your friend
Your other brother
Another love to come and comfort you
And I'll keep reminding
If it's the only thing
I ever doI will always love
I will always love you
Yes youI will always, always, always, always love
I will always, always love
I will always, always love, love

Climb up over the top.
Survey the state of the soul.
You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.
Why not give it a shot?
Shake it.
Take control and inevitably wind up
Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you.


to my friend....thank you. :-)

"Gum i dedicate LIFE IS WONDERFUL JASON MRAZ 2u. go google lyric. PLEZ."

ok so that was the sms i recieved from ujie yest. so i did check it out and fell in love with the song. indeed a lovely song...so here i'm sharing it with all of you guys...the live version is much better...now the song is in my head a lot! very chilled and laid back song , nice simple meaningful lyrics. enjoy everyone!

p.s. i don't know what written in the video..but this is the best resolution i can get of the video..so ignore the text;-)

perhaps by listening to this song always one will be convinced that life is wonderful? ;-)

I've finally managed to read Tuesdays with Morrie and there're some parts of the book which i'd love to share...beautiful thoughts...

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." (p.43)

"...if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too--even when you're in the dark." (p.61)

"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid." (p.104)

"We...need to forgive ourselves...For all the things we didn't do. All the things we should have done. You can't get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened." (p.166)

"You have to find what's good and true and beautiful in your life as it is now. Looking back makes you competitive. And, age is not a competitive issue." (p.120)

"...if you're trying to show off for people at the top, forget it. They will look down on you anyhow. And if you're trying to show off for people at the bottom, forget it. They will only envy you. Status will get you nowhere. Only an open heart will allow you to float equally between everyone." (p.127)

"...no matter where you live, the biggest defect we human beings have is our shortsightedness. We don't see what we could be. We should be looking at our potential, stretching ourselves into everything we can be come." (p.156)

"Death ends a life, not a relationship." (p.174)

"There is no formula to relationships. They have to be negotiated in loving ways, with room for both parties, what they want and what they need, what they can do and what their life is like." (p.177,178)

"A man of few words"...that is how normally many people would describe my dad, or rather, abah. I couldn't agree more...:-)

Father's Day was yesterday...and i know many don't think that we should celebrate Father's Day, for various reasons; some say, in Islam, there's no such thing as that, and some say everyday we should show appreciation towards our fathers and mothers, so there's no need for all the hype to do various things; dinner, gifts, flowers, wishes etc on a certain day. All those are true, but i don't think there's anything wrong in showing extra appreciation to my parents on those particular dates.

Abah, it's been 13 years now and i miss doing some things for you be it on Father's Day, on your birthday or on yours and mom's wedding anniversary.
There were many things i wanted to do, taking you out for a really good dinner, hanging out with you and talking about some really interesting books i've been reading, discussing life, discussing just about anything.
Ah yes, I miss our fights...(-: ; of the fact that I can never win an argument with you, well it would normally just end up with me getting all riled up and leaving the discussion...hmmm..but i'd definitely be better in control of my emotions and able to give sound justifications now;-)
I miss the quiet moments we had, the silence never seemed to bother us during the drive we used to have on our usual trip to fetch zareen from work...in fact, those moments are the ones i truly remember and i have realised then that words were not necessary in the company of someone we love dearly...
I miss hearing to the fascinating stories during your younger days. It never tires me to hear those stories of yours.
I miss hearing your voice reciting the Quran every morning especially during ramadhan...it's very soothing and calming.
I miss the time you would gently wake all of us(even mom;-)) up for sahur to some nice hot food.
I miss your cooking. hmmm yummy...the mee kuah, the fried rice, the many other delicious and creative dishes you managed to come up with.
I miss seeing your reactions while watching football or wrestling on tv ..hahaha...
I miss seeing your excitement whenever we were to bring good results home.
I miss the feeling of anticipation for yours and moms' visit when i was in hostel and uni.
I miss coming back home during holidays, alighting the bus and finding the familiar face sharing my delight.
I miss the warm and reassuring hugs you give.
I miss many other little things you used to do for us.
Above all, I miss your quiet love for all of us.

I may not be able to do the things i wish to do for my father now, but I am contented. I have the memories still and I love how i feel whenever i think of this part of my life. i do feel devastated, no.... i believe that is still too mild a word to use to describe how i feel at times when the memories flood in...but i embrace that feeling and smile through my tears....

So, for those out there who still have a chance to experience life with your fathers , seize the time and make the most out of it, don't hesitate to express your love towards our fathers, and of course mothers :-) for you never know what is in store for you tomorrow...kal ho na ho.

To abah, Happy Father's Day.
Al-fatihah...

so...i went to jusco yesterday with my housemate...for the sole purpose of having some good brunch at coffee bean...well a week in masjid tanah and tired of the food here...we wanted true western food;-)
as i was slipping into my slippers before going out the door, i realised i have to get a new pair, some stones are missing already he he hee...so Vincci came to mind...i did notice some pretty slips the week before when in Midvalley, but it was extremely crowded and i could only buy a pair! *sigh*
so...after fettucini and pure chocolate ice blended...hmmm( so yummy!)we headed to Vincci, and it struck me, that the school hols is still not over, so i guess you guys could imagine the peps there...it was a challenge to get from coffee bean to vincci!
so there were many times when i knocked into people or them knocking into me...and yes of course, 'sorry' comes out may times from me...but from those ppl who knocked into me or the people i said sorry to, not a word! and sometimes what i get is an accusing look for being in their way! hey people where are your manners? if you knock into someone, could you pleasseeeeee have some courtesy to say 'sorry'? and if someone knocks into you and says 'sorry' the response here is not a glare you all...but 'it's ok'!!!
and if you need to pass me by, have you ever heard of 'excuse me'? all these are so frustrating!!!

you know i think many malaysians have got to improve on this....many don't have courtesy! or rather don't even know what courtesy is...i couldn't help thinking, if the adults (and here i mean parents or future parents) can't even say excuse me and sorry...what can we expect from their kids? obviously children learn from observing their parents, as every teaching begins at home...even i'm not a parent and i know this! of course i am a teacher after all ;-)

therefore, i'd just like to emphasise this to all the students here in KMM, please please please practice courtesy in your life especially in this college....coz from my experience, here it's the same, not many are courteous...

so my dears....
always remember to treat other people as how you want to be treated....before you want to say or do anything to anyone, put yourself in that person's shoes, if you think you'll feel hurt with that remark or action, keep it to yourself and don't say or do it.

*hugs*

First meeting with the new bloggers...i'd say an overwhelming response...
looks like an enthusiastic bunch...
lots of questions...and some very cheeky questions as well...haa boys? 'continuous' is the word;-)

hope to see those enthusiasm in your blogs as well...

over and out!

so hopefully i'll get to reading it soon...:-)

I'll never feel the weight of your hands
Inside mine like diamonds
Lace so fine ballerina
Cupcake and my earthquake
Wakes me from a sleep that
Never comes are you breathing
Waiting for me

I didn't really want you
But I want you now
Was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud

I didn't think I needed you
But I need you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you crashing down
Into the empty world
The music stops
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
You will always be mine

The room spins
Pull you from me
My body burns
Tell me of the rainbows
The colors that the rain throws
Ballerina dance softly
She knows when to come only
When she's called
I’m slowly coming to

I didn't really want you
But I need you
Was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud

I didn't think I wanted you
But I want you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you crashing down
Into the empty world
The music stops
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
You will always be mine

So, so sorry
Just come back for me now
So, so sorry
Just come back to me now
oh soon

I didn't think I wanted you
But I want you now
It was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went outI want to rescue want to scream out loud

I didn't think I needed you
But I need you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you tumbling down
Into the empty world
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
That you will always be mine